I just had a date with friends, a friend and her friend, who later on became my friend. So well, I just had a date with friends. My friend ( the older) lost her laptop sometime back to fraudsters. It must have been devastating. oh no let me rephrase that, it was devastating. So I decided to take her out and I must say I had too much fun, the adrenalin has refused to reduce so that I can get a good night's sleep.
So I am here at 1 in the morning, writing after a really long time. I have wanted to write, God knows I have but ... but ... well I can't think of a reason to give as to why I haven't written in a long while. But then I have tI just had a date with a friends, a friend and her friend, who later on became my friend. So well, I just had a date with friends. Her friend ( the older) lost her laptop sometime back to fraudsters. It must have been devastating. oh no let me crephrase that, it was devastating. So I decided to take her out and I must say I had too much fun, the adrenalinhas refused to reduce so that I can get a good night's sleep.
So I am here at 1 in the morning, wroting after a really long time. I have wanted to write, God knows I have but ... but ... well I can't think of a reason to give as to why I haven't written in a long while. But then I have to realise that no reason is the biggest reason, because everything else is just an excuse. But no reason, is a good place. Or so I tell myself.
Since I started my new job, (this is my shy way of saying I started a new job, Kinda like drop it in the middle of a post like it is any other thing). But since I did, I have had much opportunity to meet the needs of different people around me. Ahem not really, truthfully what I have been doing is throw money at problems.
Before the job, I would get frustrated at all the different problems the people around me were facing and I used to wish I had money to give everyone and sort them out. Now I am on this side of the coin, and I have realised more than anything they want someone to listen. Yes you can chip in with your money but listen!
It's been a humblimg experience but I am learning that memeories are remebered more than pitching in. Thing is, money is never enough, that the economists got it right. So even though I am to throw money at the problems it would be done before the problems do, then I'd get frustrated again!
I began the job with all the good intentions. I was going to be financially prudent. I had a budget and a space for daily expenditures. It worked for the first month and the second, then the third came ...all hell broke loose. No matter how much planning I did, I couldn't meet my needs. So I subtracted and added and it seemed to work for the first two weeks. But I wasn't cut out for living on more than a shoe string budget, so I snapped and just started buying things. In any case, the money was already not enough. It couldn't be less enough!
At the beginning of this I asked Elous to teach me to depend on her regardless of my bank balance. These are things I am learning. To know, like really know that he is my provider, jehovah jireh. So we have been talking with Sara and sometimes I get it. Though to reflect upon the past few months, I must say he's taken care of me. I learning to make my budget regardless of my pay check. I have favour, people give me things. People look out for me. I could say I am loved or something. But this is how she is taking care of me. Through the people around me.
So I am here at 1 in the morning, writing after a really long time. I have wanted to write, God knows I have but ... but ... well I can't think of a reason to give as to why I haven't written in a long while. But then I have tI just had a date with a friends, a friend and her friend, who later on became my friend. So well, I just had a date with friends. Her friend ( the older) lost her laptop sometime back to fraudsters. It must have been devastating. oh no let me crephrase that, it was devastating. So I decided to take her out and I must say I had too much fun, the adrenalinhas refused to reduce so that I can get a good night's sleep.
So I am here at 1 in the morning, wroting after a really long time. I have wanted to write, God knows I have but ... but ... well I can't think of a reason to give as to why I haven't written in a long while. But then I have to realise that no reason is the biggest reason, because everything else is just an excuse. But no reason, is a good place. Or so I tell myself.
Since I started my new job, (this is my shy way of saying I started a new job, Kinda like drop it in the middle of a post like it is any other thing). But since I did, I have had much opportunity to meet the needs of different people around me. Ahem not really, truthfully what I have been doing is throw money at problems.
Before the job, I would get frustrated at all the different problems the people around me were facing and I used to wish I had money to give everyone and sort them out. Now I am on this side of the coin, and I have realised more than anything they want someone to listen. Yes you can chip in with your money but listen!
It's been a humblimg experience but I am learning that memeories are remebered more than pitching in. Thing is, money is never enough, that the economists got it right. So even though I am to throw money at the problems it would be done before the problems do, then I'd get frustrated again!
I began the job with all the good intentions. I was going to be financially prudent. I had a budget and a space for daily expenditures. It worked for the first month and the second, then the third came ...all hell broke loose. No matter how much planning I did, I couldn't meet my needs. So I subtracted and added and it seemed to work for the first two weeks. But I wasn't cut out for living on more than a shoe string budget, so I snapped and just started buying things. In any case, the money was already not enough. It couldn't be less enough!
At the beginning of this I asked Elous to teach me to depend on her regardless of my bank balance. These are things I am learning. To know, like really know that he is my provider, jehovah jireh. So we have been talking with Sara and sometimes I get it. Though to reflect upon the past few months, I must say he's taken care of me. I learning to make my budget regardless of my pay check. I have favour, people give me things. People look out for me. I could say I am loved or something. But this is how she is taking care of me. Through the people around me.
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